Just Him

Sometimes I feel trapped in the prison of stagnation.  There are moments in my life where the Gospel doesn’t move me the way it should.  The result is, that I want things back the way they were.  Back to when I felt Christ reigned more supreme in my affections than He does now.  So, what do I do?  I practice all of the spiritual disciplines that I can to know that He is uppermost in my affections.

Here is where the problem begins.  The problem is what I focus on.

In order to find myself totally passionate about Jesus, I focus on the spiritual disciplines.  Herein lies the problem.  I focus on a list of things to do in order to be more passionate about Jesus.  Upon completion of the list I find myself frustrated that nothing has changed.  I can’t figure it out, I did all the things I’m supposed to do, why do I find myself not passionate about the Gospel as I should be?

Here is what God (through the help of friends) reminded me:  I was focusing on as list of things to do, instead of focusing on Christ.  He is the goal.  He is the prize.  I made the goal completion of a list of things I need to do in order to know Him instead of making the goal just, knowing Him.

We are all wired this way.  We are all prone to desire “to do” things instead of just “to be”.  We all want to find the things that we need to do, rather than just being with Him.

May God help us and show us mercy in our folly.  May we focus on the Gospel of Jesus with our goal to be, JUST HIM.